I have been thinking a lot over the last few days because I have been at work alone and no customers have come in.. so I was bored and I let my mind wander.

I have been thinking about getting drunk. Why do people enjoy it so much? I know that the seemingly obvious answer to this would be that we get drunk because we want to escape all of the "grievances" in our lives. We want to numb all that hurts us emotionally. And to that train of thought I say... Fair enough...

Obviously that's why a lot of people get drunk but I definitely think that there is something more to it.

Personally, I do not hate my life and I am not saddened by much on a daily basis and I love the idea of getting absolutely caught up in a whirlwind of tequila shots and cheap champagne on a regular. So, why do I enjoy it so much? Especially with the frequent and unbearable hangovers that follow.

I know is that when I have come to the end of the week I feel stressed and exhausted and usually I can only stand the idea that I have to work on Saturday mornings if there is some prospect of me getting drunk that night. Whether is be a party or clubbing or just playing a drinking game at home with my boy.

And that's not to mention actually being.. wasted. And this brings me to the answer of my question. When I have had one too many I feel euphoric and I have loads of fun because I interact with people more easily. I don't know why but over the last 3 years or so my social skills have been severely stunted and I find myself speechless at times when someone asks me a question or tells me a joke because I just do not know how to respond.

And I realised that when my mind is overcome by copious amounts of alcohol I am more likely to strike up a conversation with person x or person y. I have fun because I talk to old friends and new friends so much more. I am not just a hopeless drunk who drinks aimlessly... I have an end and alcohol is my means...

So I encourage all who drink... ask yourself this one crucial question... Why do i like getting drunk? You may learn something about yourself.

Love... What a dumb topic.

It is currently 12:01,I am typing this because I have come to a realisation. Love is not what most people thinks it is.Love is not soul mates spending eternity together. Love us a brutal force that we must treat with such care because if we do not then love will collapse and tear us to shreds.

The question I have is, why would anyone make themselves vulnerable to that degree of hurt.Think of the chances of love actually lasting. Ask yourself how many times an average person falls in love... Once,twice,ten times?? Imagine all the tears shed each time such a love is destroyed,whether it be because of a break up or a death. Yet, we still seem to get right back on that horse ready for the next failure.

Don't get me wrong,I am currently very much in love and there is nothing about my relationship that indicates it is doomed.I am merely commenting on the vast population who suffer from heartbreak over and over again. Surely such a hurt could not possibly justify the good times? In fact,the good parts of a relationship make the heartbreak even worse, because in those cases it feels like you are losing much much more.

I myself have been in love twice, maybe three times. The first time I was possibly in love I was completely blind, I was so blinded by this love that I did not even realise that my counteroart held no feeling for me. This was the first time I was ever hurt.

The second time I was deeply and definitely in love and because of certain flaws, which I have come to realise were mainly mine, that love was ended. It took me a long time to recover but then I fell back into the arms of love yet again.

And I think this happens because humans would rather accept that they will get hurt, than live a life alone,without anyone to love.This is because true love offers us more than just companionship. It offers us a prospect of an entire future.

As it stands right now, I can't quite remember where I was going when I started writing this blog, what I do know is this... Love,in its purest form is one of the most fantastic and wonderful capacities that humans have developed. It simply does not matter that along with loves comes inevitable heartbreak because love is stronger than any other force that pulls us as humans. We just have to be careful with it. Treat the one you love with complete respect and care and the saying, 'till death to us part' will become a reality.

It is now 12:16... Good Night!!